A new day as always

Assalamualaikum and a happy good morning,

today i wake up at 8 a.m ( Suboh prayed already) , hoping for a fine day today. what i mean by fine is i can accomplished what i am supposed to do- mostly atleast. i have to study and do some revisions for my coming exam that is near the corner of this month.

well talk about yesterday, i am pretty sad because i went through the Card Signing worst. i am blurred, confiused and dissappointed of myself. what happenned actually, the lecturer asking me about some nerves and what did the nerves do.

me : (what did they do?) urm they actually flexed and extended the elbow
lecturer : no you are wrong.
me : hurm? ( confiused and again confiused and confiused)

i wont tell further details, but the main thing i got a very poor grade - grade that i really deserved it. it is a very mentally challenge experience, where everyone looking at you and laughing due to your 'stupidiness'. its hard to accept. really.

However, i did evaluated myself. my major mistake is i did not understand what the base of the queastion itself. when i keep evaluate myself after the 'incidence' (its not an accident because i can really prevent it) till i back home. well, the answer for that easy question can be divided into certain parts. a) what muscles did they supply b) what are the course of the nerves. if the lecturer specifically ask me based on the 2 parts i mentioned before, i could certainly answer it right.

keeping evaluating, my life is not about 'if''... 'if' really presents, life will be simple and as abc. But the truth of reality is, life is not about 'if'. its about learning lessons and do not repeat it again. well thats mean life is much complicated and interesting. i have to face it with a big heart. in positive thinking, this bad incidence happened really motivated me to improve, and keep studying for the coming examination. 'if' i get a good result, i will be much overconfident. right?

i just want to say to the lecturer yesterday,
' thank you. you give me much lessons that i will never forget'

talking about today. i am going to start studying. no more playing around. when we need to be serious, we have to. so do i.

last but not least, the lesson is, if u did not understand the question, reask the question for better understanding- for your/me benefit.

thank you.
all the best all.

7/5/2011
MeA